Me and La
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a-ok
Now Playing: requeum
Topic: my own bachelorette show
All things happen for a reason, right?
So what happened with La and I? I don't wanna talk about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bottom line is, I have the tendency to be a caretaker. I like the guy, I don't think I could ever love him. That's what happened. He's cute, he's smart, he's tallented. But at least as of now, he's kinda boring. He doesn't want to do stuff or go out much. He's looking to marry someone and then only be friends with that one person, pretty much. He is slightly hyporcitical because he's got excuses for stuff and he hates excuses. Only human, so it's ok. He's a little unhappy and I feel sorry for him and I care about him and I want him to be happy. So I'm still friends with him not sure why I am, probably just cuz I don't want him to be alone. I don't think he cares for me like I care for him. Like if I didn't ever call him again, he wouldn't care. We just didn't click enough. We have very little in common, he insulted my sense of humor and he can only understand one kind. Humor is the most important thing to him and he doesn't get my jokes. I don't get his because they are laced with pop-culture references from the 80s, and I wasn't here so I can't relate. And so he feels like he can't make me laugh and so he doens't have as good of a time with me anyway. I think he is a very nice, sweet guy. I think he's been alone too long and he's a little abrasive. But he's the easiest person to talk to and approachable when someone has some relationship issues with him, and that's a great quality. It didn't last long, but I think we had fun. I think he needs friends more right now then he needs a girlfriend. He's very lonely.
Why did it get past the second date? Because I didn't trust myself that I wouldn't like him more because I thought there was Bradterference. I like Brad still. He made a huge mark on me. So I thought maybe it'll be ok and I forced myself to date this guy. The thing about him is that he has a bunch of faults - he's controlling - I joked about that and he picked up and we "discussed" it but he still doesn't see it. There's a couple of other little stuff, really small though. Here's the deal. Unlike many other guys, with all his faults, I could accept him, and perhaps fall in love with him down the line. Whereas other people's differences would drive me crazy. Basically, I could stand to marry this guy if serious feelings developed because his bad stuff I could live with. There's stuff that I can't say here that's bad, but all of it so far I could live with without it driving me nuts. And who's to say that feelings wouldn't have developed later? But he said "let's talk about us" and so we broke up. Right thing to do. Woohoo, I had a 3 week long relationship! with Gau, Tony and this, one can see, my crisis of dating a guy for a year and figuring out then that I don't want him long term, may have come to an end.
Posted by anteojos
at 12:01 AM CDT
Updated: Friday, 22 October 2004 11:51 PM CDT
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